Long time since i wrote

I havent written in a while lol,

I am on my last week of school, WOW this is a little scary.I am really sad to leave school i really love the environment it has given me. Plus i will miss our usual bible study at school, its really what keeps me sane all week.

Really Miss you Bek sooo much thanks for everything. I think your probly the only reader on this thing.

Well if you can make it i would like you to see me graduate, i am not sure if this is possible, but let me know. Ok.

Chat soon

Love ya

Ruthie.

Here and now!!

Here and now, where am i here and now? i am at school a week and 4 days before my exam prepared,No, wasting time, yes :P.

Feelings,God, Life

It is my last day of year 10 and i cant help but think i kind of failed my class i feel like although i was proud of myself for my achievements i feel guilty like i have to do everything to help others for the one moment i was actually proud of myself it saddens me to think that at this stage of my life i just can't be proud of my achievements. I know I'm not the only one in this world that feels this way but i cant help but think there must be a solution to this, endless sadness that is constantly over running the people of this earth. and i i can keep thinking is to ask God.

God is a topic i am most passionate about it seems to me that it is extremely comforting to know that someone is willing to forgive you despite you sinning all the time. He gives you this constant feeling that you are worth something and it is nice to know that even if you don't believe it someone cares enough to say it to you.

I feel that support is a huge problem in my life at the moment i know of those friends that care about me but for some reason i just cant make them understand the problems in the class. Then another friend See's the pain and wrong -doings of a girl but has not got the confidence to tell her its wrong to do the things she is doing. Grrrrrrr it is so annoying to see sometimes.

The one thing i am glad about this year is that i didn't become one of the crowd i stuck to my belief's and i won the battle i thought i could never win. I have taken so much stuff for granted and you don't know how much you need something till its gone.

chat soon

Ruth

Prayer journals

It is an AWSOME idea i use one all the time.

Just buy an exercise book and use it to write your prayers in it it really helps to express your feelings and really talk to God

Just try it!!!!

Respect

Respect is something that so many teenagers don't have and don't want, They are always fighting for popularity, coolness. They are the constant bagger-outers and they have no want to succeed in anything but let downs.

As a christian we should strive to encourage others to do whats right and to be ourselves, but we seem to let it all go for the fear of being judged or hurt. I constantly strive to have at least one quiet time a day and 4 times to read the bible a day because the bibles influence makes us stronger to withstand those bullies who forget that just because your different doesn't mean you don't have feelings.

Reading the bible is a good way of getting stronger but it also brigs the devils work a notch higher. Remember that he hates you doing the right thinks he wants you to do the worst stuff he wants you addicted to drugs,alcohol anything you are weak with he will use to his advantage.

So many teens these days say their Christians but they are constantly rebelling by hate and fear.

They hate their teachers they hat their parents they hate themselves they hate God. That's where us Christians should pray and help those people.

Lifetime of pain

Hey i wrote this song for someone i care a lot about.

Lifetime of pain


I see behind your smile and i know your hurting,its been a while and i know your searching for that one true love that one satisfaction but you don't know the pain caused by your actions.

You no the truth, i know its hard to let go but i want you to know you must understand i wont let you go so just take my hand. I will be there all the way and i have no doubt you will go back to him someday.

You think he left you but i know that's not true, all the pain in your life is nothing but lies.Hes got hold of you but I'm praying for you.

Last time i saw you, your eyes showed hurting I was hurting with you that's how much i love you.
Be strong in God there's no use in running there's no need to cry let go you no you need him.

I hear his words he wants to hug you he wants you to let him love you. Your face says it all your screaming for this nightmare to end.It can all of this hurt can end just write that email and hit send he will be expecting your plea.He's already forgiven you, don you see.

All you have to do is forgive yourself let go of those burdens let them burn in hell.

I've broken free of those chains of condemnation so i can preach about God to every nation.

But I'm scared for you I cant help but cry because if you don't change i know where you'll end up when you die & to think there will be no rest but a lifetime of pain it's too much to bear it drives me insane.

I can't express my love i just hope its enough.What it all comes down to is are you strong enough to call Satan's bluff.

Dedicated to J.Murphy

Life

Life what is it worth and who cares any way?

these questions are always a problem in our generation.

life is so hard for so many people that its too hard for christians to keep up with who to help first.I am always trying to help someone but it turns out to be a mess i care so much about people that i want to do it all but if i dont take care of myself i will hurt myself phisically to the point were i dont help anyone.

it would be too hard to serch for everyone who needs someone to talk too so ill use this blog.If you want to learn more about god or if you need someone to pray for you i will be more then happy to talk to you. Someone dose care about you always so never feel they dont.

God Bless you

Ruth