It is my last day of year 10 and i cant help but think i kind of failed my class i feel like although i was proud of myself for my achievements i feel guilty like i have to do everything to help others for the one moment i was actually proud of myself it saddens me to think that at this stage of my life i just can't be proud of my achievements. I know I'm not the only one in this world that feels this way but i cant help but think there must be a solution to this, endless sadness that is constantly over running the people of this earth. and i i can keep thinking is to ask God.
God is a topic i am most passionate about it seems to me that it is extremely comforting to know that someone is willing to forgive you despite you sinning all the time. He gives you this constant feeling that you are worth something and it is nice to know that even if you don't believe it someone cares enough to say it to you.
I feel that support is a huge problem in my life at the moment i know of those friends that care about me but for some reason i just cant make them understand the problems in the class. Then another friend See's the pain and wrong -doings of a girl but has not got the confidence to tell her its wrong to do the things she is doing. Grrrrrrr it is so annoying to see sometimes.
The one thing i am glad about this year is that i didn't become one of the crowd i stuck to my belief's and i won the battle i thought i could never win. I have taken so much stuff for granted and you don't know how much you need something till its gone.
chat soon
Ruth
